Chasin' Mason

Before I get too deep into my blog post, I have some happy business to attend to and it involves you, the reader. Thank you.  Thank you for all the prayers, the love and well wishes.  Since publishing my first blog a few weeks ago, I have received a steady stream of encouragement from family and friends.  I have used all of it to help bolster me in times of recent weakness and it has seen me through every single one of those difficult times.  I am extremely thankful for every single one of you and filled with joy.  I've had the opportunity to connect with people from my past that I've not spoken to in nearly two decades.  I've connected with people I've never met in person.  We have all shared our issues, our hopes and our prayers for one another.  No matter what happens on this journey, I am struck with and in awe of how this has brought us together.  Again, thank you. Down to Business Since publicly accepting my addiction and announc...

As the title suggests... I'm an addict.  There is simply no way around it.  It's something I've always known and have often confessed in my ramblings.  Ramblings that were nothing more than that of a fat man using humor to move the conversation away from the obvious.  I have an addiction to food, and because of that addiction I am: One cheeseburger away from a deadly heart attack. Can't reach the second story of my home without losing my breath. Constantly mopping sweat from my brow. Always tired. Self loathing Scared. I have to face reality the reason I've not dealt with my food addiction or my weight is because I am scared.  Scared to face such a difficult task.  I did it once, but can I do it again?  The constant worry of failing and not being able to recover.  The nagging of my stomach as it wants more food I am mentally unwilling to give it, but emotionally struggling to not give in to something that will make me feel better... f...